Thursday, July 29, 2010

Al-fatihah for Ady Sundae (F L O W leader)

Adi Putera B. Mohd Noor
28 Feb 1990 - 28 July 2010
Accident @ Highway Kesas Summit on 7AM

I tk sngka actually yesterday was the 1st & the last time we talk. I still remember I asked you about buka puasa 14 Aug 2010 with F L O W group. Just rasa terkilan.

He add me up & invited me to join it. Its really shocked me when heard badnews about him. OMG I feel like not believe at all but after everybody said takziah on his profile, I believe that he already gone. I never have time to talk with him more than that but well, I know he's a good guy for sure. May Allah SWT bless you. May you rest in peace. Amin.

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

السلام علبكم

Buat masa ni, aku rasa aku cuma nak share story kat sini je. Untuk memberitahu apa yang aku rasai sekarang. Just.. Aku rasa aku sangat-sangat rindu mereka. Aku pun taktau kenapa aku susah sgt nk lupakn mereka. Sorang-sorang datang balik kenangan-kenangan tu mengimbas tentang cinta-cinta yg pernah aku lalui bersama mereka yang bernama LELAKI. Dan perasaan itu seakan selalu berubah-ubah. Aku bingung ya ALLAH. Apakah erti semua ini? Bawalah mereka pergi jauh dari hidupku ya ALLAH. Hilangkanlah segala kenanganku bersama mereka sebelum ini. Walaupun jika kau kurniakan aku hilang ingatan tentang mereka. Aku mohon ya Allah. Hapuskanlah air mata yang aku keluarkan untuk mereka. Bawalah mereka ya Allah, jauh-jauh dari pandanganku. Jika sudah Engkau takdirkn mereka bkn yg sepatutnya brsamaku. Cukuplah sekadar ini. Aku sudah sangat-sangat kecewa dgn diri aku. Aku khilaf ya Allah. Aku sedar bahawa Engkau lah yg seharusnya sentiasa bertakhta di hatiku. Sesungguhnya Engkau yg maha mengetahui segala tentangku ya Allah. Tabahkanlah hatiku, berikanlah aku kesabaran dan kekuatan yang berpanjangan untuk menempuh segala dugaan ini mahupun yg lepas dan yg akan terjadi selepas ini, ya Allah. Perkenankanlah doa hambaMU ini ya ALLAH ya Rahman Ya Rahim. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

*To: Seandainya engkau tahu siapa yg ku maksudkan. Emmm

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Each person's desire, the same kind of me.
I just need one only desire at present. I mean the desire of the goods. I really want to own a camera. That is not coz of useless reasons, there are many reasons why I really want a camera. Nikon D90 enough la. I hope one day I will have it. InsyaALLAH. Amin ya rabb, amin ya allah.

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Monday, July 26, 2010

Love ALLAH More Better ♥

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Sunday, July 25, 2010

True Love

Ya ALLAH, god almighty! Dont you find me with beings that I loved him more than my love to you, and dont let me happy if the happiness be a hardship for me in the afterlife. Amin.

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Saturday, July 24, 2010


I read many articles today and its amaze me. InsyaALLAH I will always follow it and yes, Islam is the best religion. I believe of ALLAH, so much. Thnks ya ALLAH.

While I dont have anything to do. Im not eating yet nor tidyup my bed yet. Its just I got online now and read some websites also watch some vids in

I was feel something. Well jyeah about my beloved bestfriend, Razif Juakhir. Are you ok dear? I was just worrying about you. I dont have credit so then I couldnt call you =( Sorry my bad. I just wish that you are everything be alright insyaALLAH. I wish you are take enough rest last night. Get well soon hun. Amin. Im still online for sure. Drop me cmnt if u get online or else Im not forcing you if you still tired. Go take rest ok ♥

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Tonight was kinda happy coz my sis back so then Im not alone at home now but sadness, she just stay here for 2 days only. Jyeah I wish more than that but she's working so nvm. I just got back from town right now. Well pickup my sis. Huhu wont stay at home coz I really miss to face her ^0^ Beside I got a new shawl & a pair of crocs. Yeayyy! Alhamdulillah Im so happy today. Thnks ya ALLAH =')

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Friday, July 23, 2010

Aw baby! Smile More Bigger

On July 23, 2010 in car.

I really love this pic. I did wide smiles, as well with the naturally dimple, special gift from God Almighty. And its what I stand for, for happy, for forget every hurts and sad story that already past. Jyeah past is past and I want to keep moving. Guys! Pray for me that I will do it, insyaALLAH =) Coz I wont keep hurt no more. Enough for now. I want to have enough release and continue thinking about future. Thats what I should do and I hope soon everything gona be alright. Amin.

For: Iqa Tasha♥, Arra Summer, Dyana Anne, Ayue Miraa, Razif Juakhir. I'll always pray for you all too. We are in same situation but Im sure we'll be stronger and be patient to face all
the trials of love. Someday we will get more better than the past. Trust me. God almighty will never ignore us, for sure. Cheerup all my lovers. Im also will always in ur side sure thing. Loving ya always

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Any Idea For My Title?

Aku tktahu apa tujuan aku utk post blog kali ni. Aku tktau apa yg perlu aku post, apa yg perlu aku share kt korg. Btul lah statement 'whoever strong person will be strong to face other problems except LOVE.' Kn kn kn? Semua org mesti lalui this feeling kn. About 'HURT'. Zzz. Serious-shit aku mmg speechless. Aku rasa EMPTY. Aku tktau lah nk happy-happy sgt sekang ni. Aku tktau knp aku sudden changed. Aku tk salahkn siapa-siapa pun. Just aku sendiri tktau knp aku camni =,= Aku cuma tahu yg aku rasa kosong tp aku still boleh senyum coz kwn-kwn aku selalu je ngn aku & dorg tk prnh penat wish keep strong kt aku, ingat ALLAH, ingt semua ni takdir. Aku selalu ingt pesan korg, babesss! Thanks sgt-sgt buat aku ni ingat that my journey still long. Tp sometimes aku rasa cam sunyi sgt, nasib baik aku boleh online everyday & korg must understand what my reasons kn? & nasib baik aku ni masih waras utk fikir mana baik & tk baik huhu. Fyi, jgn tnya aku about 'LOVE'. Aku tkda idea nk jwb nnt aku akan BLUR manjang =,=

Ya ALLAH! Aku harap doa kwn-kwn aku utk aku strong face this situation termakbul. Ya ALLAH! Aku mohon padamu ya ALLAH. Ringankanlah bebananku ini. Terasa sgt perit hatiku utk menerimanya ya ALLAH ='( Aku percayakan takdirMU. Aku serahkan segala kepadaMU. But aku tktau knp aku sentiasa ingat perkara ini. Benda ni seolah-olah trgantung lah. Aku tktau lah nk cerita camne rasa hati aku. Aku tk salahkan kau, Yoei. Aku sayang kau. Tkda sebab aku nk persalahkan & benci kau. Aku tkkn pernah benci kau. Aku terima. Kalaupun engkau bkn utk aku. Aku sentiasa doakan kau bahagia selalu & berjaya dunia akhirat. Goodluck yoei. Aku mmg tkkn paksa 'dia' utk syg aku balik sbb aku tahu lah aku tkkn brjaya utk buat camtu. Siapalah aku ni ^0^ Tp aku nk bgtau yg aku SAYANG sgt kt 'dia'. Korg must understand how its feel kn? Aku suka sgt dapat kenal 'dia'. Aku tk pnh mention aku akan menangis sebab 'dia', serious! Sebab selama aku ngn 'dia' dlu, aku happy sgt. Ya ALLAH! Berikanlah aku kekuatan ya ALLAH. Sesungguhnya hanya Engkau tahu akan segala rasa hatiku. Bahkan aku pun tktau camna nk cite pasal hati aku ni. Yg aku tahu, aku rasa sebak selalu. Rasa nak nanges je, nk jerit kuat-kuat but apa yg korg akn fhm klu aku buat camtu? I might be mad after that tho so hahah. & aku tahu masa tkleh berundur. Tkpalah, aku serah sumanya tu pada takdir ALLAH. Aku tahu semua ni adalah jalan terbaik yg ALLAH anugerahkan utk aku. However, aku still rasa sgt-sgt bersyukur dpt sayang dia & disayangi dia dulu & aku happy sgt-sgt klu dia boleh terima aku as good friend & talk-talk ngn aku lg like before. Aku RINDU sgt suma tu, yoei but whatever it is, aku terima. Thanks =') InsyaALLAH aku harap boleh harungi suma dugaan hidup ni. Amiinnnnn

Special kisses to my lovely bestfriends; Iqa Tasha♥, Aien Shyra, Ayue Mira, Dyana Anne, Razif Juakhir,
Ara Summer, Wan Hazwan, Fify VN, Abg Ammar, Fairuz Lynn, Bakry, Atyqah for always be my side. Korg mesti fhm aku kn. Thnks sgt duhh! Aku appreciate korg. Hope we're friends till the end of my life.

سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Sunday, July 18, 2010

I Can Live Even Without You & You Know I Just Lie

It never occurred to me
I could not imagine the slightest
You're going to leave me alone

So difficult to imagine
I feel so sick
You're going to leave me alone

This is my last time seeing you
Weeping tears fall
Only able to say
Goodbye love

One hour I could have loved you in my heart
But take my time for me to forget you for life
One hour I could have loved you in my heart
But take my time for me to forget you for life in my later
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

This Is Just A Song

Hey baby cant you see
This is what you did to me
Im so far from joy
I dont want to be your toy

My heart keeps telling me
I should be with you
No more I want to get out
From this misery,
Dont know what to do

Everyday I spent my time with you
So depressed having all regrets
The more I see your face
Just cant take it any more
I love to stay away
From your over sense of self

Some might say bizarre is what you are
But I believe time can change it all
Youre just a simple boy with a special kind of life
Unsure of everything
Going nowhere with your mind
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك


I need to meet my love
Finding out our relationship
What was or has expired

You hang this relationship
You leave on me for no reason
What does he want me to do

Until when are you hanging
My love story to give hope
Until I could no longer possible
And leave yourself

The seconds of time was wasted
Could you hang my love
Speak'll all definitely

Certainly the relationship of love with you
Make me sick
Until I could no longer possible
And leave yourself
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


I dont know weather Im okay or not.
I dont know what can I asnwer when you ask me this topic, friends.
As what you all know about me.
Im always okay, Im always smile.
But only ALLAH SWT & bestfriends know me well <3

I dont know what could I say here.
I dont know what must I tell here.
I dont know what should I explain here.
I also dont know whats going on with me.
Theres nothing to talk with.
Im speechless, seriously!
Seriously Im very very very very speechless.

As what as I could say
Its hurt. So hurt. Too hurt.
But its not once.
Im naesthetized with this.
And remind myself
This is LIFE.

Thanks Allah for sent him to me.
I saw everything good around him.
I dont know weather Im blind of love or what.
But Im sure he's right.
Coz he teach me some about the real of life.
I promise to keep his words always in my deep mind.
And same goes I will do it.
Thanks, I appreciate that beloved.

Even sometimes I feel like
Im gonna lose everything
And Im gonna lose to see anything infront me
If he go and ignore me
I couldnt easier to continue do what I plan to do.
I couldnt easier findout my right way when Im lost.
I couldnt easier to feel happy
When there always have someone to stay beside me
Whatever I feel & Whenever I need.
Im gona misses that.

Even I know he's the best thing happen for me.
The best guy I ever saw,
The best friend ever,
The best adviser,
The best supporter,
The best teacher he always be.
Arghhh really cant forget it.
He's very valuable for sure.

Sometimes I feel like arghh, Im stupid I cant keep him.
I cant make he always happy.
I cant cheers him when he's sad.
I cant release him when he's moody.
I cant give anything even any help when he's on probs.
What can I do? I cant do anything.
Beside keep he worrying about me.
Arghh dude, I feel like Im the worst girlfriend ever.
Im very sure about whos the lucky girl gona replace me for him
I will always pray for you my dear. Always...

You know how its feel, life.
You know how Im in.
You watch me, Ya ALLAH.
May Im doing the right way.

I praise you ALLAH.
Please give me the long patience to face all of it & after this gonna be.

As what you know Ya ALLAH.
I love him more than everything than I love.
I always need whatever perfect things on every part of him.
But as what as Im always remember,
YOU always be there for me as ur servant.
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Monday, July 12, 2010


Three months is not a long time for you all. Right? But for me, its enough make me feel happy & lucky when had chance to be inlove with him. For the long journey we through together. Im so glad to saw you hun. Just I still wishing that youre mine forever. I aint perfect girl for be ur girlfriend. I cant give you expensive things as long as we are together. I cant stop when ur tears throw out from ur eyes. I cant make you chill when youre moody. I feel so worst girlfriend ever. I cant show you my love. But one thing that I wanted to let you know. I really love you, I really need you coz you make my life feel better. You complete it. Million TQ for you my dear.
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

You & Me

Take know that I really love you now and still. Please stop arguing about my past. Its hurt yourself, myself either. It already past that would never happen again. If i can respect ur past, why cant you do the same thing? How Im gonna show you my love towards you if you keep blame me, day by day. I just want you to understand me, & be with me, all the time. Please, I love you Amirul Mohammad.
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك

Friday, July 2, 2010

اميرول محمد

To love you give me confidence to stay
I do not feel humiliated
If I have to give way or back off
Your love is not blind my heart
Does not make me forget
Where step should I follow
Though sometimes I fall
But my belief
You will always have to take care of me

So I spoke in every pray
That you always breathe with your love for me
Such as my heart beats
Take care my love for you
سبحانك اللهم وبحمدك اشهد ان لااله إلاانت وأستغفرك وأتوب إليك